i miss africa

tonight, before heading to bed, i decided to do a little lurking on a few fave blogs. i came across one randomly called whatever. boy was i in for a bittersweet treat. megan, the auth just came back from africa. as i started reading and looking at pictures, i was totally overwhelmed with feelings and emotions and memories. going and to swaziland and then coming home was one the hardest emotional things i have had to do. i felt things i have never felt before and it was a new, different type of sadness and grief and rejoicing. its like i almost didn't know how to feel and sort through everything i had just seen and witnessed. although there was heartbreak and sadness in swazi, there is also triumph and joy. i sit here tonight feeling all of this.


i am glad for the reminder of what i learned, of what i love and why i went to africa. of the people i served, and of the people who served me - who made me a better person without even knowing it. just being them made me better. i hope i can be like them. and i now know...its time to go back.